I feel very busy.
I’ve been feeling veeeery overwhelmed by… everything. It feels like there is something hiding just outside of my periphery that I’m forgetting about. It feels like an anvil has been placed on my sternum (ever so slowly, ever so gently, almost imperceptibly until it was too late).
It feels like I’m letting people down, but I don’t know why. I feel like I’m not living up to what others are expecting of me, even though I am doing my absolute best to keep my head above water. I had to take a break from streaming to focus on other projects and life in general.
I was talking to Soph of Uncultured Palate this week, and expressing these ideas, and we concluded that this is what burnout feels like. And I know this has been the case for a while. I get bursts of happiness and productivity, sometimes for weeks or months at a time. And then it’s like a boulder slams into me and my momentum is shattered.
I’m chalking it up to, you know, *gestures broadly at the state of the world* all of the everything. But it’s also, you know, *gestures less broadly at self* just a me thing. I’ve been doing a lot, and haven’t really given myself a chance to breathe for a bit. It’s not something I’m good at, resting.
After my conversation with Soph, I decided to start planning a vacation for sometime in September or the end of August. I need some time to do nothing except play video games, do some writing, and work on crochet projects. I would like to spend some time in the woods.
Wish me luck and send good vibes.
(Also, characteristically, big announcement coming on Monday. Hang out here and click the “Subscribe” button to get the news live!) (Side note to the side note: I wonder why I’m so burned out? Couldn’t be because I am always doing a million projects.)
Liz Makes Stuff 