Yesterday was my birthday. I am older™ now.
It honestly feels pretty good. This marks the start of the new adventure that is every year, and I’m excited to set out on this road. This song has been in my head all morning, appropriately:
Oh, mirror in the sky
What is love?
Can the child within my heart rise above?
Can I sail through the changin’ ocean tides?
Can I handle the seasons of my life?Well, I’ve been afraid of changin’
Fleetwood Mac, “Landslide”
‘Cause I’ve built my life around you
But time makes you bolder
Even children get older
And I’m getting older too
I honestly hadn’t looked at the lyrics of that song until I went to find that quote. I only remembered the part about “Even children get older, and I’m getting older too.” But hey, what do you know, these couple of stanzas are a pretty good representation of how I feel about life in general right now. I’ve been afraid of changing. There has been so much change in my life in the last several years. But it’s necessary for growth, as long as the person I am beneath all this turmoil stays true. Which I believe it has. I think I am, however, definitely becoming bolder. More comfortable in who I am and what I’m doing out here.
A poem has been jangling around my head for almost six months now, and I think it’s about time to start writing it down. Especially now, on the cusp of my new year.
TL;DR: I’m thirty (two), and flirty (too), and getting healthier and stronger every day. Thanks for being with me on this journey!